My birthday is tomorrow and my sister said she wanted to take me out to eat so I was really excited. I said yes and told her how nice it would be get away from our mom (who I care for and lives with me) as we haven't been getting along well lately. My sister than says 'oh I was thinking of taking her and her daughter (my niece) with but we can leave them home'. I said I needed some time away from our mom so we planned to leave them home. Today I messaged her to make sure we were still on and she asks if she can bring daughter with 'as she really wants to go out to eat'. I said if she comes we might as well bring mom with. So she's waiting for me tell her if they can come or not. My decision, of course. If I say no, I'm the a**hole, and if I say yes, it's basically going to be a chore to go. My niece is 11, talks constantly and needs to be the center of attention wherever she is, my mom takes ten minutes to walk fifty steps, will probably be in pain and I can't exactly vent about her when she's sitting right next to me.
I don't even want to go anymore, I'd rather the three of them went and brought me home the leftovers. I want to be around an adult I can talk to, my life is work, going to the grocery store, taking my dog for a walk, and being around my mom. I just feel like the wind is being knocked out of my sails, she already knew I didn't want them to come, she just wants me to say yes so she can knock out two birds with one stone. If the three of us go and leave my mom home, that will hurt her feelings. If I say I don't want to go, my sister will call me 'dramatic'. I'm hurt, sad, angry and alone.
Sounds like you could use a few more supportive adults in your life. Maybe you could look into a caregiver support group? People on this site will have good suggestions.
Happy Birthday!
I don’t really have any advice other than to say it sounds like you need & a deserve a break! On your birthday You should get to do what you want with whoever you want. I’ve got an 11 year old too so know I what you mean there. I leave her at home whenever possible because 11 is a difficult age.
Either way you need someone you can count on to be there to support you and help celebrate your life. As of right now your sister does not appear to be that
person.
yourself tomorrow, even if it's just on your own. :)
It's your birthday you can cry if you want to, you can send mom with her other daughter and energizer granddaughter and go do something for you.
When you can't please everyone, please yourself on your birthday. I am completely selfish on my birthday and I tell everyone if they don't like it, tell someone who cares. That is the only day of the year that is mine and I am not going to let anyone ruin it for me. Do the same and don't put up with any bs about it.
🎊🎉🎂🎂🎉🎊HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, IF YOU HAVE TOO, HIT THEM WITH A SHOE🎉🎉🎊🎊🎉
When disappointed about the day, rename it your birthday month.
Go anywhere, get your own presents, spend time with good people.
Get yourself some chocolate.
Call in sick for the chaotic toxic non-birthday birthday party. (At the last minute).
You can rise above it.
Or, ask sister and neice to bring the entire party to you at home. Where Mom can be there. Then, excuse yourself early, go out and leave them to watch Mom.
(However, you can be a gracious receiver instead of a brat). I prefer the brat method. But it feels good to contemplate being bratty to let off steam, to know you have choices, but I never actually do it.
Go out any day of your birthday month.
I don't want to anymore, I think at this point it would be awkward. I'm just really tired and want to be alone.
needed respite and time to decompress without having to always be "on"
Your sister is being an ass imho. Sorry just had to say it.
You sound seriously burnt out. Is there any way to plan a break from caregiving? Can you ask your sister to come over while you go to a movie, call a friend and talk while strolling at the mall, relax at a cafe, etc? I hope so!
Or is it time to reassess the whole deal?
While I am not my father's hands on caregiver I totally get what you are saying about how much work it is to include your mom in ANYTHING. We might make plans for a family dinner out and one of my kids suggest we take Grandpa. Except I am the one who has to go get him and bring him home. I am the one who has to take him to the bathroom and I am the one paying for his meal. Now that they are adults I have learned to speak up and ask for help. Having Grandpa over for a holiday...well then someone has to help bring him one way.
This birthday is a bust but afterwards have a heart to heart with your sister and tell her you need one on one time with just her to vent and recharge. I am sure she just doesn't get how hard it is.
Maybe one gift you could give to yourself is stop worrying what other people think? Doesn't sound like your sister is too concerned about what you think. Or, heck, kick it up a notch and give her an actual reason to call you 'dramatic'. Just kidding, kinda anyway. Sounds like you need some help taking care of her. It's out there, just takes while to figure out the best options.
So Happy Birthday!
From me and so many caregivers understanding just how it is, and wanting to acknowledge your feelings about your birthday.
Happy bday ;)
xoxo
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So I get how you are feeling. I hope that you managed to eke out a good day for yourself. Try and get away even when it's not your B'Day. It would do you good. I know it's hard to do but very important you try.