I posted the other day about my dad refusing the pacemaker and so his end of life is unknown but most likely pretty close.
Anyway i am very emotional and tearing up all the time. I want his time to be happy and upbeat. He made his decision about the pacemaker..but has forgotten about iit so he doesnt really know why we are so emotional.
He loves gospel..and i tear up every time some songs come up...wish i could control my emotions better ..especially around him.
Any suggestions?
You might feel better and be more cheerful around your father if you take time out to get some exercise and fresh air. Take a break and hang out with a friend. Get your nails done, go to a fancy coffee shop, shoot rats at the dump, or whatever you like to do.
And be you. For after it all happens, you are still here. With yourself. And after all, that Daddy DNA is still alive within you.
Then I compose myself and get on with it.
Stop trying to rationalize your emotions and don't isolate. There's no shame in sharing your pain with others who are trying to do the same thing. It'll make mourning -- and the entire grieving process -- a lot easier.
Doh!!! I just noticed your post was dated May 31, 2014. In any case, are you feeling better and closer to acceptance?
My deepest apologies for adding to your grief.