My mother is refusing to eat today, and I am unable to give her her medications because she will get sick and vomit without food in her stomach. So what do I do....... I get mad! Stupid ,huh? So I gave her her meds anyway acting like I was angry the whole time. I brought her back into to bed ( which is where she wanted to go) ANd I just walke out of her room and I haven't talked to her since. That was about 1 hour ago. Yes, I feel like a rat!! I often wonder If I am actually what's best for her? Am I really doing her good or am I harming her emotionally. I don't mean to, but I just lose patience. I recently got a preseciption from her doctor for THC products for her. I;m hoping that will improve her appetite. However, I haave been, waiting for one week for some wierdo to come to my house and talk to us about how this all works. I am definately going to try some of this new medication! Right now I'm going to lay down for about a half hour and try the day again. I am open to suggestions?????
Not everyone is tempermentally suited to be a caregiver. It is possible that your mother would be better off with professional care. But I certainly wouldn't conclude that from a few episodes where you didn't behave as you wish you had. None of us would be qualified to take care of loved ones if that were the standard we had to live up to!
I wish we could all be superhuman, but we're just people with emotions. It would be nice to be wonderful all the time, but then our parents would wonder if an alien being had taken over our bodies. :) Your mother probably knows you and knows that you were just having a bad day.