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wow....just wow........
When she is gone...you are going to miss her.
Suck it up buttercup..
She raised your A@# and you don't get to decide to do anything but check the mail.
Unbelievable...
Microphone DROP
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Wow! What an answer Buttercup …..
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It’s not wrong. You just want to see her out of her misery
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you sound like a good person putting up with all of this
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No, I don't think it is 'wrong' to hope someone dies. Both my M&D are still alive but I sure am hoping Dad goes first because the misery/stress that she'll potentially spread if she is left alone will be ....WOW! I try not to think about it as its a big trigger for me. I fear (working on this) that I'll be asked/expected to stay over if she is left alone as I live the closest and at 82 yrs old, she has NEVER stayed a night alone. The last time I "stayed" at her house (i.e. a period of time) was after my first son was born, albeit 28 yrs ago, I'm still working through the damage to myself from that stay. I WONT stay with her again. I HAVE PROMISED myself to treat myself with more kindness now and will not hurt myself like that EVER again. I have to maintain boundaries now and one of those is not staying with her for long periods of time ever again and it's a HELL no to
" stays" now even if she is left alone. I will do what I can but MY emotional health comes first and I will be unapologetic about that now.

Dysfunction, especially when combined with abuse, does not end once a child reaches adulthood or because the abuser begins to get old. By then, the abusive parent is well-versed in the tactics needed to make their children do what they want, and these behaviors are likely to continue right up until the parents' death unless someone—usually the abused—makes it stop.
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Kmjfree Aug 2022
I so agree with you. I fear my Dad going first. I will never stay with mother. She has burned all her bridges and that was her choice. I just wish she would leave me alone.
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My soon to be 97 y/o mom moved in w/us after my father passed away 15 or so years ago...in that time we cared for her around the clock... make every meal wash everything, My wife passed from cancer recently and my mom feels she was neglected during the illness. My wife was gone in less than 9 months from diagnoses. I truly have not grieved my wife as mom feels she was neglected. Just venting...thanks.
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sp19690 Aug 2022
I am so sorry about your wife. Losing her that quickly must have been so hard. Your mom is a selfish B. Seriously i don't know how you continue caring for her after a comment like that. I dont think you will be able to grieve your wife fully until your mother is no longer with you.
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Oh boy. I had to do a double take to make sure I didn’t write your post. My mom doesn’t have diabetes, but everything else you listed is spot on.
Addto that neglected financial paperwork, bills, etc., that she refuses to even open let alone address, and we’d have similar moms.

It isn’t wrong to want struggle and suffering to end. Hers, yours, everyone’s. Since her condition isn’t going to improve (it is so frustrating that these people have folks waiting on them hand and foot and STILL won’t lift a finger to better their conditions!), it seems logical to just secretly hope it will all end. I have the same hard thoughts, which are hard because this person was never a mother. Just a person who had kids and was never happy. I hope you can find some peace knowing you aren’t alone.
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I would check into putting her into hospice. She has so many things wrong, they might take her as a patient. I believe there is no set end time for hospice unless Medicaid/Medicare puts a limit. Call you local/favorite hospital and see what the rules are . If she has a lot of money and assets, that might affect her eligibility but worth asking. Also, find a nursing home that does respite care. She could go there for a month or two just to give the family a break. Again, not sure how her insurance would work, but I am sure the nursing home can fill you in. But do your research about the nursing/assisted living place, review and visit. There are some really good ones out there, but some not so good ones. A good one around where I live goes for about 5200 a month unless you have no assets and then Medicaid might kick in but prices can vary a lot, especially with level of care. If you want her out of bed, you could tell her the doctor wants her up, dinner is ready at the dinner table and if she would like some she will have to come to the table and it would be great for everybody to have dinner together. Ask her things that you can think of that ask her for an answer about something she likes to do. Tell her you need her opinion about something in the kitchen, sewing or a hobby. Give her options that she can decide yes or no, and then go ahead and do it yourself. If there are things she can do for herself let her. With all that she has going on with her health, and now falling, I would think hospice would be a real option, but I don't know your whole situation. Talk to her doctor, your doctor, your church, support groups and get all the info you can then make a decision. If she still is smoking, do not supply them. She is making herself sicker and anybody in the house at risk. And, if you think I have no experience, I have been taking care of my husband for 10 years. I am tired, resentful, worried, but he has never been mean or unappreciative. But as he get worse, I think about then what. Don't let her abuse you. Of coarse take care of her needs but don't put up with requests or refusals that are not reasonable. Listen intently, advise or suggest, then make a decision if the way she is acting is something that you should do for her health, or say you are not can't do that and quietly walk away.
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At this point I feel the same way about my mom as horrible as that sounds because she has become a MAJOR burden to me and my brother

I can't go anywhere to have fun and meet people because of her

I am 29 years old and still haven't found my true love yet and I never will as long as I'm stuck being my mom's caretaker!

I'm afraid to stand up to myself because I fear what her reaction and the consequence of rebelling would be

There are only 2 ways out of this:

-Save up money and move out or be placed into a group home (me and my brother are slightly disabled)

OR

-Wait for my mom to die so we can FINALLY be free at long last!

There is NOTHING wrong with wishing an elderly loved one dies especially if they lived a long enough life (my mom is 70) and have become a waste of resources
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lealonnie1 Sep 2022
I'm 65 and do not feel that 70 is 'long enough life' to have lived or that I'm a 'waste of resources'! Just saying.
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Actually, I might have lied a little bit when I said "I can't go anywhere to have fun and meet people because of her"

That's not entirely true or accurate

I DO have ways of getting out

The local transit bus can come here but I have to request a route deviation 2 hours in advance

And we do have people and neighbors who help take us places

It's just been too hot to do anything
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Dont feel guilty about how you view this problem. Narcissists have no com”
passion for others, so how could you learn compassion for them when it might seem appropriate. Don’t feel
bad about how people judge you. They are not in your shoes. Some
therapu for yourself might be helpful
to handle the stress you are going
Through.
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tygrlly1 Sep 2022
So spot on....The lightbulb finally went on for me today...after years of my miserable NPD 92 year old other bullying our entire family I finally made the difficult decision to go no contact after our last interaction ended me up in the ER with a fullblown panic attack and diverticulitis flare ..a bad one. My wonderful late dad enabled her ..he was handicapped and did it to survive. I told her she would no longer see me in person because of my health and her abuse. I will be ordering her groceries online and she will send me a reimbursemant check once a month. She was shouting like a maniac that a stranger from Shipt was going to be delivering her groceries..and not a word about my health. She lost her last punching bag and is melting down. I dont, and can no longer care...She is in a nice senior community in her own apt and safe..but locked in her own cage of misery....Karma. Lifes too short ..
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Don't you feel bad about wanting this, because you are not alone. I too wish this for my 99 year old mom. She is selfish, self-centered, and narcissistic. She used me as if I was her personal assistant and not her daughter. She has no care about my feelings and always puts me down. A young actress has recently written a book entitled "I'm Glad my mother died.". I'm going to get that book. You should too. God bless you. He loves you and feels for you.
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Shayshay318 Apr 9, 2024
Don't believe that God loves me at all.. took my mom away and left a POS narc that lives with me and still verbally and emotionally abuses me everyday... He doesns' t feel nothing for me... or he would answer my prayer. and i prayed for 20 years for my father to pass.
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Nope, dont feel guilty thinking about it. Just ask God for forgiveness and he knows. Instead pray for God to change her to a better nicer person. I tell you it helps. I thought about it many times but, I learn to pray for them to be better persons instead and things have been working out ....
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Shayshay318 Apr 9, 2024
I don't care if God does not forgive me. He gave me an abusive p***k for a father and my mom ended up dying. I don't care.... I am not going to pray that my father is nice because it won't happen.. I am pretty angry at God right now.
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It is so very frustrating when you are the one expected to take care of them when they refused to care for themselves.

I just wrote 2 paragraphs and deleted them regarding some of the many ways my mom willfully neglected her own health. I'll just condense them: Living on toast to lose weight because she loved how thin my friend was....the one with stomach cancer, purposely living in a mold environment for years (yes we tried, even so far as telling her that her clothing smelled and bringing her information), refusing to monitor her BP, not following up with dr, not getting prescriptions filled, not because she forgot, but because she's 'fine'...even though she's fine because the meds were working. She wouldn't get avacados because they're $1 each, but she'll buy chips for $4. Those are the top ones, there are so many more.

Add to that that mom was mean and you're now supposed to overlook all that and sacrifice your quality of life to remind them to eat, buy their avacados and well, ya, I get what you're feeling.

My mom forgets what's inconvenient, remembers what she wants to and wants waited on. I no longer answer every question, but tell her how to find the answer and am not serving her.

Mom: What day is it? Me: Where is your calendar?

Mom: When do I take this monitor off? Me: Three days after it was put on.
Mom: When was that? Me: Where's the paperwork?
Mom: Here it is (trying to hand it to me) Me: Awesome! Read it and it should say on there.

Me: Mom, do you want to eat? Mom: YES PLEASE
Me: The chicken is on the 2nd shelf and the steamed brocc is right beside it.

Mom: Put the dog outside Me: The dog goes out when she wants to.
Mom: I don't want it around me Me: My dog is part of my family and LIVES here. Mom: dirty looks the dog

Mom: Can I turn a light on? Me: What do you think?
Mom: Well I want to make sure it's ok Me : Don't I tell you if you're reading to please turn a light on? Mom: Yes (and the unspoken part....I usually turn it on when I say that)

I wouldn't say my mom is a narcissist, but Dr Ramini (You Tube) listed 4 types, and gave examples. Some of the phrases Dr R said they use are some of the EXACT things I've heard my entire life, so I'd say mom has had narcissistic tendencies.

My mom has expected respect without giving it, and has actually said, "I'm an old lady" as if that gives her the right to be rude. My siblings think she is just wanting to be taken care of. We have each observed her on security camera, reading or watching tv until she hears us coming near, then she turns off the tv or puts down the book and will stare vacantly or put her head in her hands. She has been seen moving briskly until she realizes we're there, then she slows down to p p steps and puts her arms out as if she is attempting to balance.

While your mom is in the hospital, can you talk to doctors about releasing her to a LTC facility?
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bundleofjoy Sep 2022
sister, i hear ya!

many of the things you describe are like what’s happening on my side: for example the dialogues. that way she does less, you do more. sneaky ways to try to dump even more tasks on your shoulders.

“It is so very frustrating when you are the one expected to take care of them when they refused to care for themselves.”

i understand you!

here, you and i have different experiences. my mother is normally extreeeeeemely healthy. she took really great care of herself all her life. she got unlucky and started having health issues - but it’s absolutely not her fault.
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I am sorry you are having to experience all this with your mother. My goodness, you have had to deal with a lot. Take advantage of her being away in the hospital right now. Look up some of your friends and go out. Go shopping, go to the salon, get your nails and pedicure done. Do something for yourself and get some rest! If the house is in a mess get a maid to come clean while your mom is in hospital. God Bless your soul.
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bundleofjoy Sep 2022
hug! you might not have noticed, but OP wrote the thread/post in 2012, 10 years ago.
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I recall a national survey where most people indicated that they secretly wished their mother would hurry up and die already. Whether it was to remove a domineering figure from their lives so they could enjoy their independence without her influence, I can't say, but when I think about it I realize there is much less disharmony within my own family after my mom's death. Don' beat yourself up in regards to your feelings. According to the survey you're normal.
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ventingisback Nov 2022
I have a male friend who has an abusive, elderly father. He says nasty things against my friend all the time. I’ve witnessed it too. My friend and I grew up together, so I’ve seen the verbal abuse for a long time.

My friend confided in me, that he hopes his father dies soon, because he’s so nasty to him. I must say, I can understand my friend’s feelings, because his father’s nastiness is extreme.
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I too feel some guilt from wishing this situation would end..As I am trying to go on my first vacation in 3 yrs my mom is “not well…vomited unending…all last night” ….despite no real good evidence that is accurate per the RN at the assisted living. Mom is needy and anxious. Appears years younger than 90 ish..took great care of herself and has some lower stage dementia. The endless needs and attention are wearing me out. Hospital visits, weakness …some days she looks likes a pending end and then a miraculous rebound..3 years of this. She even woke up normal in a memory care after 7 months of deep dementia. I love mom..just hate this situation. Back to mental health counseling!! Mom will most likely live to 100! Good luck to everyone doing this.
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BurntCaregiver Sep 2022
Sadinroanokeva,

Please go on your vacation. Your mother will be cared for at the AL she's in.
You already know that there will be a "health crisis" and an "emergency" because she wants you to miss out on your vacation. She wants to ruin it for you and will give the performance of her life to get you to.
Now, you can do one of two things here. Don't let her know you're going on a vacation. Just go. Leave instructions with the AL staff to tell your mother you're on vacation if she asks where you are. Tell them to not contact you unless there's an actual emergency and to not help your mother contact you for any reason.
Or you can stop playing her games. You do not have to meet her endless needs and pay her constant attention. She is in an AL facility that has aid staff. Believe me when I say NO ONE can meet the endless needs 24/7 or cater to the asinine nonsense our beloved elders come up with. It will consume your life and ruin both your mental and physical health if you're trying to. In spite of almost 25 years as an in-home caregiver to elderly my mother's endless needs and abusive nonsense almost put me in my grave. Im walking away because my life depends on it. So does yours.
Ask her doctor to prescribe medication to help her anxiousness. Then go on your vacation. When you return reduce the number of phone calls you take from your mother. Reduce the number of visits and hours you spend at the AL visiting her.
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It's not wrong, it's human. She's suffering, and you're suffering, and you want all of that to end. Unfortunately you have to wait for it to happen.

Your thoughts of relief for the future are only that, thoughts. Your thoughts do not make things happen, so there is nothing to feel guilty about. Thoughts are safe and normal, and a good coping strategy.

Take care of yourself. Take care of your LO as much as is possible, for you.
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I hope not “wrong”. I tell her EVERY DAY that “if D—- and K—- (her deceased sisters) come to take you Home while I’m gone, you can go along with them”.

Sometimes she reacts a little, sometimes not.

She was not perfect when she was well (who among us are), but she acted ALWAYS out of the love she felt for her family.

I hope she has known, as I’ve done my best to indicate her family’s love for her, that even the worst of us probably think we’ve done our best on her behalf.

So with Love, we wait.
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This is only a comment and the way I feel, if my Father has to suffer then I would rather he pass. Other than that I want him here, it is not easy taking care of him right now but I feel my parents took care of me and it is my duty to take care of them. That is my opinion and I guess everyone will have their own view...
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bundleofjoy Sep 2022
dear shorty,

are you an only child? i ask because i’m surprised at how easily you take it:

“I feel my parents took care of me and it is my duty to take care of them”

i ask you because i’m not able to take it that calmly. i wonder how you manage to take it that calmly?
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Fil had a second stroke four days ago. He is now in an icu ccu.

And I’m like, here we go again. Here we all go thinking that fil or mil is on the imminent edge of dying.

Forgive me for having been through this at least a dozen times with him and her over the past 2 years. I’m just desensitized to them saying this is it.
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Husbandx Sep 2022
I have been there. Husband has had so many times I thought he was on his last leg,in 7yrs always bounces back. I’m at the point I want to put him in a McDonald’s or somewhere. Very abusive at times. Verbal and throws things
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This is my personal opinion.

We wanted our dad to pass to relieve him of his pain and suffering. He never complained but his pain was so obvious. His sickness affected the entire family. We were sad when he died, but relieved that he was no longer suffering. We all miss him to this day and long to see him. But he is at peace.
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New here and just reaching out. Spent nine months as a caregiver so far, saving a parents life via hospitalizations twice and taking them into my home. I want my life back but not at the cost of theirs. It may be easier to not exist than to suffer a loss. I'm not able to accept a loss if it means I was the cause. I know this is burnout, but I don't see any other path. My sibling walked away six moths ago stating their health is more important. Her only grandchildren aren't mine and mom loves them dearly even though they do nothing for her. All the burden on me and if I don't accept it, I 'm not the person I want to be. Maybe no one can be. Life isn't fair. My S.O. is suffering from my choices and this isn't fair to her either. But, if I go, she can retire immediately. My liver has probably suffered as well since Wellbutrin isn't enough. Ultimately I don't care if I die, since then I'm no longer responsible. Sadly, it's almost a fantasy where I imagine the burden passing back to my (f*ing) brother but I know he will send her to a nursing home and forget about her, so I go on. While I want to continue, I don't know how to live with failure. I'm no longer sure what difference a day, a week, a month or a year make in the grand scheme of things. It sucks taking her to banks and trying to re-arreange accounts based upon her will (I had to make the appt with a lawyer to get this going as well). My boss supports my needs for time off and say's St. Peter will look favorably on me, but I'm really not sure that matters.

Any advice?
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My mom is 98, disabled and in pain from sore swollen joints, sciatica, and has toilet accidents that she finds extremely upsetting and embarrassing. She’s outlived my dad, all their best friends and the neighbours. She’s still living in the family home and since going off her legs, carers come in 4 times a day THANK GOD as she’d refused them for years when she could hardly walk at all which put so much added pressure on me. I’ve been on my knees with mental and physical exhaustion, but always pick up and carry on again. I’m her only daughter and main visitor / companion so I don’t often go out socially and I’m often too tired anyway.
Of course I realise when she dies I will be ‘free’ and please tell me because I don’t know if having this thought means I WISH she would die?? She’s been a good mom, yet an obstructive difficult mom and a martyr all my life and to a degree is still very much in control to do her bidding but lately I do things in my own time for the sake of my sanity.

She’s been anaemic for years and early on this year was diagnosed with a blood disorder (milodisplasure) and has to have life saving blood transfusion every fortnight. It’s quite unpleasant for a woman of her age having needles and drips attached and sitting all day with her mobility issues, it takes it out of her and she hates the upheaval of it.
Her consultant phoned me to ask if moms quality of life is worth keeping the treatment going and he would stop it if I wanted to which would mean ‘the end’ He also said that this illness means mom could pass away anytime and anyone else her age with the same condition probably would which is testimony to how strong a person she is.
I was so taken aback but my answer was mom has enough faculties to know the consequences of ending treatment so It’s HER decision and I won’t play god with her life. The day she tells me she doesn’t want or can’t face having the treatment will be the day to stop giving it to her and I’ve told same to the rest of the family.
I’m 65 now, worked 40 years, raised 2 good girls alone with moms help for which I am very grateful but really want to have more ME time.
I don’t always feel my best and looking after mom is draining. If I can bring myself to do so each night I usually give her a kiss on her forehead and say night mom sleep well combined with the thought this could be the last time … ?
Best news is (as I don't want to come across as a martyr ) I’m going abroad in October for a weeks well deserved holiday, it’s creeping up now and yet I dread telling her I’m leaving her to the carers. I firmly believe there’s every chance she will make 100, and if she does (wow) so be it.
I’ve been told by others who’ve had the experience ‘you’ll really miss her when she’s gone’ I’ll have to wait and see.
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Have you asked your mom if she wants to stop the treatments? Maybe she thimks she has to keep doing them. I can't imagine being 98 and in that much pain and wanting to keep going like that.
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FILs stroke turned out to be related to his Guardian heart device leaking, so he will go into the hospital for yet another surgery. This will be the 3rd replacement on the device, the eighth surgery in 18 months.
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Agentsmith Dec 2022
So sorry PeggySue. Sounds like this device is not worth much. Or the surgeons, or both.
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Posting again on this thread because it’s so relevant. Mom has moderate-severe dementia and is prone to strokes and brief siezures. I hope that a seizure takes her home rather than this horribe decline where eventually she’ll forget how to swallow. Of course her being gone is so sad too….given the choice I’d choose the quicker out…there’s just no win with this situation.

People tell me with a smile on their face that because she’s so well taken care of she could go on for years, yay! I’m congratulating myself on not shrieking when they say that. People haven’t the slightest clue.

Then I feel guilty for wishing this seemingly endless situation is over. On top of duties and responsibilities ( other sib never helped at all ) Mom has had literally about 10 quick seizures where she blinks in and out. She rolls with it and so did I but after the 10th freaking time of this ‘maybe she’s gone, maybe she’s not ‘ my brain just went *phut *. Like what kind of horrible life and death game is this. It’s like being tied to a nightmare. I use all the tricks and self help imaginable but it shouldn’t be this much effort to try to have normal, decent enough days.

Again I have to thank this forum for the space to vent to people who ‘get it’. Blessings and wishing the best outcome for us all!
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DaniLV Oct 2022
Madison. I have never ever heard another person say exactly, to the letter say what I think.
My mum alzo has dementia and ALL I can think of is “I wish she’d die today”. It takes such a tool on us taking care of her; I’m an only child and thankfully she has amazing siblings who also participate in her care because I don’t know what I’d do without them.
people always tell me to “take advantage” of the time I have with her but, what do I have? A person that resembles my mother with no other characteristics. She is just a walking shell at this point. Her speech is basically mumbling and she does nothing but roam up and down the house. Nothing else.

I hate it so much and it feels like the end is never going to come. She will never die, and I am just stuck, scared to move or get a new job that requires traveling or anything like that because then, who is going to care for her?
I understand you so completely.
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Fil is on the operating table again today for his third heart op in 18 months, third time to replace a device that was supposed to have him not have a second stroke. He did anyway.

Hes had eight operations in that time.
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I'm surprised they are installing the same faulty device. 8 operations in 18 months is crazy.
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I love my mother so much, and she is my last living family member. But it breaks my heart to witness her painful deterioration, and it rips me in two because she knows it is happening and tells me she is becoming a useless person who has no brain. I will miss her forever, but I would give anything to help her end this ordeal. Organizations are hellbent on keeping people alive; there’s no money when they’re dead. We are at cross-purposes with them for the most part. We need to develop a societal norm where it is acceptable and embraced to assist a loved one towards the place they want to go, and not be encouraged to keep them on meds, 24/7 care and permanent indignity just to keep them alive.
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Hothouseflower Nov 2022
The lesson I am learning from caregiving my 94 year old parents who are physical messes is that I intend to end my life on my own terms. I am looking at going to Dignitas when my time comes. I think keeping seniors alive past a point where there is no quality of life is of no use to anyone except for the corporations who profit from bleeding them dry.
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Your friend should have no shame in hoping his abusive father dies soon.
I'll be honest. I didn't really have all that much grief when my father died. He wasn't close with us at all. None of us kids were ever any kind of priority in his life. He wasn't abusive though. When he dies my sibings and myself sort of felt like you do when a distant great aunt or uncle who you only see at weddings or funerals dies. Nothing serious.
When my mother goes that will be different. She's been in my life a lot more. I also had a lifetime of abuse from her and have lived as her caregiver. So I will surely feel very complicated emotions which I'll deal with.
Your friend isn't wrong though.
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I agree about hoping the abusive father dies soon. Yet, it appears few people are able or willing to accept such reality.

Here are such feelings of an abused adult child found anonymously online.

"I’ll be so glad, when you depart.

This day, this hour, this minute, this second, leave planet earth right now

Either from a heart attack or a stroke, I don’t care how.

There was much punishment you deserved before becoming elderly.

Some things are going in the grave with you as you go into eternity.

. . .

Do you now feel helpless now like I did?

Do you even wish that you were already dead?

I’ve had that idea too fly into my head.

I’m not lying,

I’m glad you are dying

For as you are, I’m finally thriving

You are no longer the one totally in
control

All you have before you is being put in a six foot deep hole.

How I hate your objectification.

Spent years seeking salvation.

Your ending is but my beginning.

Thus, for you it is the end.

But for me it is a new day to begin.

And you said I would see that you were
not the bad one in the end.

Your drama is in its last act as well as about to end.

...

But mama, you’re the enemy

You knew it was wrong, but you did it anyway.

Knew it would cause me pain indefinitely.

Facing your own eternity, and this time you are through,

The train’s whistle sounds for you."
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Two weeks before hubby had stroke he made me promise not to leave him in a hopeless situation. Example: machine life support.

So as the doctor is telling me how serious the situation is (may not even wake up. If wakes up would require 24/7 care for rest of life) and then give hope to his adult children you can imagine how many friends I had left when I ask doc what is the process for allowing hubby to die. I had almost zero sleep for five days, first time I been in hospital since I was born and even less medical knowledge, high social anxiety, in the space of an 911 call I lost my anchor to the world (hubby) but still had the shell of him, we were living out of home state due to his job so I had no family or friends of my own and my method of asking question was not my finest moment. I felt so ashamed.

10yrs later and knowing the man I knew back then and how he would not had wanted to live like he has since I should of….I don’t know what I should of….I just know he would not had wanted this.

To pray for death is not a sin for those in pain, but rather an mercy.
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Lovemom1941 Dec 2022
IMHO, you did the right thing for the man you loved.
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I am going through the same thing! There is always something wrong with her!!! All she does is sits on the couch! Does nothing else. She has had back surgeries, but can walk with or without a walker. But chooses to do nothing! My husband waits on her hand and foot, and I won't!. She tripped yesterday and if my husband wasn't there she would have fallen right into our tv and down the stairs. My husband and I want to go to Aruba in March ( a gift from our son), we want to start going to my sons lakehouse in Maine on weekends. Her and I can't even look at each other without arguing. My husband gets up and walks out of the house, because all we do is argue!! I can't take any more. She has no $ and no where else to go. I am the only child
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Lovemom1941 Dec 2022
Not that you asked...but it might be worth the money to put her in an assisted living facility with self-pay and start applying for medicaid to cover her costs.
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