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Even if you had a great childhood and a happy family, not everyone is cut out to be a hands-on caregiver, especially for their elderly parents. And there is NO SHAME in that.

Just as everyone isn't cut out to be a parent. Not every woman gets googly-eyed looking at infants. I myself would have been quite content if my husband had not wanted to have children. I love my two kids, and am so glad I had them, but the prospect of motherhood, at least to me, was "meh". I feel the same way about grandkids - I know there are people out there who just can't wait to have them. If my kids choose to have children, I'm sure I will love them, but I certainly won't feel any lack in my life if they choose to remain childless. Or feel as though my kids have somehow failed me by not supplying me with grands.

The point is, no one should feel compelled to or be forced to give care to another human being if it's just not in their wheelhouse to do so. Especially since there are other options at hand - maybe not perfect options, but options nonetheless.
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Anxietynacy Aug 11, 2024
Very goog point 🙂
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I told my parents right off the bat I'd not do any hands on caregiving for them or move them in with me. When my mother suggested it, "jokingly", I cleared up that misconception immediately.

To everyone else, my mother was sweetness and light. To the immediate family who knew her, she was mean, nasty and two faced. Which makes things much harder for US, because the act these women put on portray them only in a positive light. So obviously, we are the Bad Guys for not wanting much to do with them. Shrewd, isn't it?

A few times in Assisted Living moms mask fell off and the real her was on display for all to see. The caregiver was in tears and the nurse was white in the face with shock. Yeah huh? Welcome to MY WORLD folks!

I did a lot for my mother, but it wasn't hands on caregiving but managing her life instead. I ordered snacks for her, brought her clothes and necessities, arranged a pizza party with the grandkids, things like that.

When she passed at 95, I felt relief. That she was finally at peace after a life of misery, and I was off the hook for doing more for her. By that time, I was almost 65 and ready to stop all the jumping thru hoops I'd done as an only child my whole life. I'd never felt like I had much of a mother to begin with, right wrong or indifferent, and I'd grieved that loss long before she actually died.

You're not alone. Until the others who judged us walked in our shoes, they had no idea whatsoever of what our mothers were really like.
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Anyonymous1 Aug 11, 2024
I resonate with this completely. My mother was not the same way as she was to her friends. It was quite odd being at the funeral with all the stories told about her. I wasnt able to speak at the funeral. For me attendance was the most I could do.
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I didn’t have anything like your experience. One of the first and most valuable things I learned on this forum, was how many people had painful and difficult childhood experiences that followed them long into adulthood. My childhood wasn’t perfect but I was blessed to always be cared for and loved. You made the right choices for you. Caregiving is already impossibly hard, doing it for someone you don’t have a strong, loving relationship with, well, I just cannot imagine how hard. I’m sorry you, and so many others, didn’t have the mother you needed and deserved, and wish you all peace
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You did nothing wrong .
If anything , you did it right , you did it right by setting boundaries and limiting the time you spent with your mother .

Those others had no right to expect you to do more .

As you said , your mother’s end of life has brought up issues regarding your upbringing . I recommend speaking to a therapist .

Again, you did it right rather than allowing yourself to be sucked into a situation you should not have been forced to do , nor were you comfortable with. Like you said others did not understand because their experience was different .

And yes , many of us with abusive parents like you did not set good enough boundaries like you did due to the pressure and being judged by others and sufferered for it .

Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal , including feeling relieved .

You’ve got this.
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Anyonymous1 Aug 11, 2024
Thanks for your comments. I do feel at peace with the approach I took.
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Telling you right now, someone that has resentment from the past for there parents should never caregiver there parents.

It's so hard makes your past so much worse. Your always looking for signs that they are sorry for what the did, signs they change.

Well I'm someone that didn't listen to my gut. Did what everyone expected of me, and what others said. " It's your mother" and it's so darn hard!!

So what I'm trying to say is you absolutely did the right thing.
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Anyonymous1 Aug 11, 2024
Sorry to hear that you are in this situation.
I hope that you can find a way to only do what feels right for you. I did find that very difficult to balance though.
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