Before I begin, I wanted to say that this site has helped me! It has been great to connect with others who share the same/similar stories.
I fear my father will soon need round the clock assistance. At one time many years ago, I felt like I could have taken care of him. But I have realized that I can not do it alone. I do not have siblings. Also I need to work in order to support myself. I feel guilty for even thinking that in home care or assisted living is what is best. Also, I know that his family will more than likely think bad of me for it. I'm not selling my home to move into his because if something happens to him, I'm stuck with it and I do not want to live in the area in the event something happens to him. I have only stayed around for him and my mom and she passed away many years ago. Him moving in with me is not an option because I do not have the space. As I stated in my first post, our relationship is strained. My childhood was full of negativity because of the treatment from him towards me and my mom. I'm very tired now from taking care of two household.. his and mine for the last 21 years since my mom has been gone.