I was a caregiver for almost 6 years. First my grandma and then my mom. I didn't receive much help so my life revolved around them. I lost touch with friends and family. Now both of them have passed away, and it is hard to pick up your life again. I'm trying to try new things and to make new friends, but some days it feels overwhelming. My mom was always the person I could talk to even when she would have a hard time responding. I loved them both and being alone is hard. I'm not sure what was harder being the sole caregiver without a lot of help, or trying to live without them and being alone. It almost feels like I gave up my chance at a family when I took care of them, but I can't regret doing it because they are so important to me. I just had to talk to some one and this is all I have right now.
Counseling may be a good way to help you transition to another life, so to speak. Many of us have spent so many years as caregivers that it becomes our identity. I have. It sounds like you have. There's no weakness in seeking the help of someone who can listen long term and perhaps guide you as you find new meaning in your life.
Please keep us updated on how you are doing. You'll help others as well as yourself.
Take care,
Carol