Today I had my first appointment with an actual therapist (not a counselor).
Even though one hour wasn't long enough to spew out everything I need to talk about, this woman completely picked up on 2 truly major points.
1) Even ONE of the stressors I have been dealing with over the last year is more than enough to warrant therapy!
2) I have been the "caregiver " for everyone in my family since I was 12 years old!
She asked me what I do for myself?
I had absolutely no answer!!
Hence therapy!! Lol
Caring for a narcissistic LO is a labor of love!
Not because they will love us back, but because we need to love ourselves!!
How do you keep caring selflessly for your selfish LO?
What do you do for yourself?
(((Hugs)))
Geeeeez, there are some very odd posts sometimes. Interesting…
my MIL is a covert narcissist. I have Been BLISSFULLY no contact since March of 2020 😃 lots of drama regarding her living in our rental with roommates and hoarding. To many comments and shitty behaviors towards me an my only child Dear Husband.
My husband hasn’t seen his mother since he moved her out of the rental in July of 2020. Yes, her crap and roommates crap stayed in our rental for months! I had to send a formal letter stating we would pay 1 month of storage. Mind you, she had help from my husband, our daughter (17) and flying monkeys to move.
DH has finally come out of the FOG. He still has some work to do in regards to her guilting him over the phone. He hasn’t seen her since July 2020.
Her bday is this weekend and he has offered to have our daughter drive her and her FM (flying monkey) to our cabin property that has been passed to him. Falling apart when we got it.
Im worried she is going to pull some form of guilt and he will get into a funk/bad mood. I’m hoping that DD driving her 1-1/2 hours to and from the property will alleviate her guilting him on the car ride if he had to take her lol. She only shows her crappy side to DH, her brother and me. DD is my child from a previous marriage… so she’s not family (MIL words)
Im torn between wanting her to behave and wanting her to mess up. DH said if she acts up…he has done his diligence in trying to spend time with her.
I refuse to get her a gift. He bought her a card. In the past we would splurge and take her out and she would invite her FM and order to the nines. Also would invite herself and 2 uncles b-day (they don’t get along) they ordered over $350 worth of cocktails and surf/turf grrrr many more stories of her thinking we are her piggy bank (she can well afford things btw) sorry got side tracked 😂.
hugs to you guys in healing from these Monsters!
oh, yeah (ex-foster child here) she has stated more than once to me that we should do things for her because “I know you don’t know this but that’s what family should do” her words. To many shitty comments and behaviors towards me and my husband to even mention here. Good riddance!
Yay! Congrats! Fantastic! Good for you and hubby!
Sometimes that is what it takes, right? Total separation. There’s no in between. It takes totally getting away from toxicity to realize how deadly the poison is.
I am very happy for you and your husband!
The "I know you don't know this" is the cherry on top. Yep, this one goes in the Hall of Fame of NM BS
"I guess that is what happens in some families. I don't chose to do that".
I didn't do hands on care for either of my elderly parents.
They brought me up in a loving middle class home and paid for college educations for me and for my brothers. Because that's what parents do.
They did NOT expect anything in return.
We supported my mom in her care of my dad when he was ill. We arranged for good care of my mom when she could no longer live alone.
THAT'S what families do. They pay it forward.
I love your last two words of your posting. “Good Riddance!” That’s exactly how you should feel.
There are some people that we just can’t make peace with. She sounds like someone that isn’t worth the effort of even trying to get along with.
If people like your MIL are displeased and the relationship ends, that’s a blessing!
I hope you start to feel better soon. It might have been lots of stress that caused to to fall and hit your head. It happened to me while my mom was in the ER. I had new shoes on and was rushing to let my niece in the door to the ER and my foot got stuck to the tile floor and I took a flip and hit my head against the wall, I was on blood thineeres at the time.. I was in the same room as my mother overnight. It was definately stress and lack of sleep.
Take care of yourelf, get support from other family members if possible and get help when needed. Sending my thought snd prayers to you. Hope you have a quick recovery.
Take care of yourself, try to get enough sleep if possible and get extra help when needed. I did and it made less stress in my life
Somebody finally wrote a book for US. And it is the only one out there, literally. The author says in the preface that she wrote the book for that very reason, there was nothing out there for us! Us being adult survivors of narcissistic abuse (or any kind of abuse) that are now faced with caring for the same elders that abused us.
Your turn for care: Surviving the aging and death of the adults who harmed you
By: Laura Brown
I bought it last night and started reading it on my kindle. I'm just starting and already hooked. A book like this is long over-due. And we are FAR from alone.
Two, you have encouraged me to seek counseling. Not just for myself, but also for my husband.
Our lives have been turned upside down by temporary caregiving revolving into permanent living situation.
That person has since left our home. We went into this blindly with an “it will all work out attitude”. Wrong!!!!
Also, the arguments over this situation brought out some honest dialog that my husband and I need to address concerning our marriage.
We only endured this drama for months. I could not fathom those who continually live in a pressure cooker for years.
I am so grateful for this community. Honestly had no one to talk with. I posed a question, and got genuine feedback and suggestions. It solidified that my gut instinct was right.
What I have read on these posts just astounds me. So many people hurting.
I will continually pray for all of you.
I have truly discovered that you have to take care of yourself first!!!
I have bent over backwards and twisted myself in so many different directions trying to placate my NM.
At this moment, we are not speaking.
I called her out and gave her the ultimatum that she's not welcome in my home until she sees a therapist. I knew going into it the response I was going to get. Narcissist don't like confrontation.
My brother (her flying monkey) has told me that she is moving back to Colorado in March. We'll see!
In the meantime, I am going to do my utmost to not get sucked back into her narcissistic web!
I pray you find the courage (without the guilt) to take care of yourself first!!!
Mothers are supposed to love and nurture their children without expectations!!
God bless!
Sending you prayers!!
I sought therapy for myself and it helped tremendously!
I am still no contact with my NM.
I have blocked her number and on FB.
Although I feel totally crappy for ignoring her at Christmas, I have to say that today has been so pleasant and mostly stress free!!
Merry Christmas and God bless!!
(((Hugs)))
But now we have new issues, due to a conpanion’s health issues. Major changes are creating instability. I flew out there last minute to put things in motion so that she can stay there and be as independent as possible. Partly out of love, but mostly for my own self-preservation. I don’t want her here. My state isn’t big enough, never mind my home.
She’s been texting me non-stop since I’ve been home. Ack! I need to put in place new boundaries. And I binge ate today. I think I’m in mourning for my lost childhood again. It’s so hard to deal with her, even as an adult with lots of coping skills. I feel so sad for the child I was, trapped in an abusive situation. I always get wound up after I care for her. It just feels so fricking unfair.
I have so many, many more good days now, because of lots of therapy, reading related materials as needed, writing, it ain't easy, this has taken years, but over all I'm in a good place now.
They aren't going to change-I can (change).