Is anyone else having a challenge of doing things scriptural, verses what the secular world says. As in scripture says to put others before me whereas the secular world says put me first. I know what is right, just wondering if others may struggle with this. And how do we mourn the loss of ourselves without sinking into depression? How do we have joy in the midst of our trials and tribulations? It seems that as time passes my patience doesn't hurt as much, (must be experience), but still everyday I start wearing down where my patience begins to hurt a little and I am struggling not to let it be seen. I spend a lot of time in prayer and in the word, that is the only way I have the strength to do this, putting myself aside. But as a faulty human being, I am still in a struggle and seek like minded individuals who understand. May God bless all those who are loving their loved ones to the best of their ability.
2 Timothy 3:7 Always learning and never able to arrive at a knowledge of the truth.
Psalm 130:5 I am counting on the Lord; yes, I am counting on him. I have put my hope in his word.
Psalm 40:1-2 I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.
I hope you all are well. It has been a rough year thus far around here anyway. Mom is just recovering from being extremely ill for almost a month. It was awful and I am so thankful she is ok now, I didn't know for a while how it would go.
I have about a month before I return to school after the summer break, I hope it will all go well.
I just wanted to check in with you all and let you all know I think of your often, I pray for you often and I miss you often.
I hope all is well in your worlds, as well as can be.
Please keep me and Mom in your prayers.
Psalm 18:32 It is God that girdeth me with strength, And maketh my way perfect.
When the best of me is barely breathin'
When I'm not somebody I believe in
Hold on to me
When I miss the light the night has stolen
When I'm slammin' all the doors You've opened
Hold on to me
Hold on to me
Hold on to me when it's too dark to see You
When I am sure I have reached the end
Hold on to me when I forget I need You
When I let go, hold me again
When I don't feel like I'm worth defendin'
When I'm tired of my pretendin'
Hold on to me
When I start to break in desperation
Underneath the weight of expectation
Hold on to me
Hold on to me
Hold on to me when it's too dark to see You
When I am sure I have reached the end
Hold on to me when I forget I need You
When I let go, hold me again
I could rest here in Your arms forever
'Cause I know nobody loves me better
Hold on to me
Hold on to me
I feel like I'm fighting anxiety and depression all the time while working hard to keep it from friends and family. I am constantly reminding myself that Christ calls us to serve others yet at the same time yearn to have at least part of my life back where I have more freedom. We're told to find it pure joy when faced with trials. I surely wish I could feel joyful. Prayer and reading the Bible are what keep me going. I don't always "feel" God's presence but I know His promises and that gives me comfort.
I'm especially thankful for this site. Nobody but those who are caregivers know the layers and layers of struggles and emotions that go into caring for an elderly loved one.
Sorry to hear about AB having episodes. I just can't imagine having to carry your load. Really, that's a lot. Take care smeshque.
I will never forget your support and kindness! 💗
I am at peace knowing that mom is reunited with my daddy in heaven. She was ready to be with Jesus.
We are burying her ashes in our family plot this weekend.
I miss you all so much. You are all always in my prayers and my heart. You are and have been such a vital part of my strength and endurance. I love you all so much!
NHWM- Much love Dear friend, my condolences.
Send- I love the poems and scriptures.
To all of you, I hope that you are all doing well, and hanging in there with grace.
We just got back from taking Mom to see a sister she hadn't seen in 30 years or more. It was such a blessing for her. It was a long tiring journey and I am SO happy to be home, but I am glad she had a wonderful time, that is what mattered.
I just finished up this semester with all A's, even in chemistry which I was terrified I would do so poorly in. God really helped me through it. I received my Associates and am continuing on this fall towards my BSN. We shall see what God has in store. I will tell you that going to school at this time in my life has been possibly foolish, and super difficult. But, with God's help I am managing.
AB had 2 more episodes. We finally hired some help for him, because Mom is my priority and well I just cannot do it all, you all have taught me that. :)
Mom is doing well, God really takes good care of that woman. She has a check up next week.
The goats are so cute and quite therapeutic for me. I just love having them as pets. DH says we will not worry about milking until I have completed school. That is a load off. The babies still drink, so Moms are not going to get mastitis or anything and I keep a watchful eye on them. But, I just love them so much, they are a blessing.
This year is going by so fast.
One thing we did on our trip was stop by Helen Kellers birthplace. I have always had an admiration for her and Anne, God's hand is written all over her story.
It made me cry.
Well Dear Friends I will try to be back as often as I can and hopefully can have a conversation :) XOXOXOXOXOXOX
" The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
Helen Keller
And miss the joy I've planned....
I'll Never Let Go of Your Hand
by
Don Francisco
I know what you've been hearing
I've seen you hide your fear
Embarrassed by your weaknesses
Afraid to let Me near
I wish you knew how much I long
For you to understand
No matter what may happen, child
I'll never let go of your hand
I know you've been forsaken
By all you've known before
When you've failed their expectations
They frown and close the door
But even though your heart itself
Should lose the will to stand
No matter what may happen, child
I'll never let go of your hand
The life that I have given you
No one can take away
I've sealed it with My Spirit, blood and word
The everlasting Father has made His covenant with you
And He's stronger than the world you've seen and heard
So don't you fear to show them
All the love I have for you
I'll be with you everywhere
In everything you do
And even if you do it wrong
And miss the joy I planned
I'll never, never let go of your hand
The life that I have given you
No one can take away
I've sealed it with My Spirit, blood and Word
The everlasting Father has made His covenant with you
And He's stronger than the world you've seen and heard
So don't you fear to show them
All the love I have for you
I'll be with you everywhere
In everything you do
And even if you do it wrong
And miss the joy I planned
I'll never, never let go of your hand
I'll never let go of your hand.
I can’t thank you enough for your warmth and support. I continue to pray for all of you.
My heart goes out to each one of you.
It made me remember my grannie. She didn't know who I was but, our visits were filled with love and laughter and that was all that mattered in the end.
I pray that my poem will give you some encouragement during these difficult times:
How We Are Holding Up
My daddy forgot my name today
It seems so strange to say
This day became eventual
As daddy fades away
Letters on white paper
Not etched into his mind
Just a word, just a word
A word he could not find
Repeating my name
Five, Ten times... gone
Trying to grasp and keep it
Asking, "What went wrong?"
Gone... but forgotten
Blurry time and space
What's in a name, Dad?
See the smile on my face?
We put our trust in God
One hour at a time
We cling onto Dad's spirit
As time erases his mind
Our love knows his heart
A heart that's strong and true
We remember his strength
And the things he used to do
We treasure every moment
We treasure every smile
From dawn to time for bed
Facing each and every trial
Outside a storm is brewing
The world is in a hurry
Unkind words and heartbreak
Stress and work and worry
In the arms of God,
Where we are living still,
Peace returns, enters joy
Blessings are so REAL!
My Daddy forgot my name today
And, that's OK with me
Believing in what God has planned
Is all we will ever need
-Debi Huizar
I was hoping you would join believers everywhere to pray for Ali, whose room mate is moving OUT!
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against a spiritual wickedness in high places.
Ephesians 6:12
HI Send! I just wanted to say hi to you:)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOkImV2cJDg
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side....
the secular world says children of abusers have the option to not give what’s undeserved.
IMO abusers deserve abandonment.
John 19:28-30
King James Version
28 After this, Jesus knowing that all things were now accomplished, that the scripture might be fulfilled, saith, I thirst.
29 Now there was set a vessel full of vinegar: and they filled a sponge with vinegar, and put it upon hyssop, and put it to his mouth.
30 When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.
New King James Version
The Widow’s Two Mites
21 And He looked up and saw the rich putting their gifts into the treasury, 2 and He saw also a certain poor widow putting in two mites. 3 So He said, “Truly I say to you that this poor widow has put in more than all; 4 for all these out of their abundance have put in offerings for God, but she out of her poverty put in all the livelihood that she had.”
I've seen you hide your fear
Embarrassed by your weaknesses
Afraid to let Me near
I wish you knew how much I long
For you to understand
No matter what may happen, child
I'll never let go of your hand
I know you've been forsaken
By all you've known before
When you've failed their expectations
They frown and close the door
But even though your heart itself
Should lose the will to stand
No matter what may happen, child
I'll never let go of your hand
The life that I have given you
No one can take away
I've sealed it with My Spirit, blood and word
The everlasting Father has made His covenant with you
And He's stronger than the world you've seen and heard
So don't you fear to show them
All the love I have for you
I'll be with you everywhere
In everything you do
And even if you do it wrong
And miss the joy I planned
I'll never, never let go of your hand
The life that I have given you
No one can take away
I've sealed it with My Spirit, blood and word
The everlasting Father has made His covenant with you
And He's stronger than the world you've seen and heard
So don't you fear to show them
All the love I have for you
I'll be with you everywhere
In everything you do
And even if you do it wrong
And miss the joy I planned
I'll never, never let go of your hand
I'll never let go of your hand
Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Don Francisco
By not shaming them to other family members.
By not responding to provocations.
By showing up at the funeral and keeping quiet.
Congratulations on your little goat herd.
Even though hard through this winter, you have really brightened up! Glad to see you here, and so happy for you!
It shows through your words how great you are doing! 🐐🐐🐐🐐🐐🐐🐐
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I always ask God and Jesus to send in special angel armies.
A special army of medical angels, to guide the doctors, nurses and other members of the medical team.
A special army of mental health angels, to heal the patient ( and myself!) emotionally and mentally. To heal my thoughts. To heal my emotions.
A special army of warrior angels, to protect us from harm.
A special army of financial angels, to help us handle the financial aspect of care.
A special army of healing angels, to heal us physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Hope this helps. :)