I care for an 89 year old mother with Alzheimer's. She's not at the point yet where she craps in her pants and can't even feed herself, but it's still a daily, depressing grind for me. Today, for whatever reason, she was semi-lucid. I made her laugh. Things were almost normal. She remembered stuff from long ago and we had a good day. For me, it felt like I could catch my breath for a few hours. An oasis of relief in a desert of pain. And then for no reason I could understand....she suddenly went back into her Zombie mode and I felt viciously kicked in the teeth...again. Alzheimer's must have been created by Satan. You look so hard for a glimmer of hope, of the parent you once knew, and you see some signs and become hopeful, and then this disease slams your head into the pavement (again)..
"Expect the worst. If the mediocre happens, rejoice."
Yea, it could almost be the A/D caregiver's official slogan.
You are awesome, so funny, creative, and compassionate. You may be tired along with the unexpected 180 by your Mom. Whatever-- you can say that, too!
Sometimes I just yell out " What the F--- Everrrrrrr." Try it:) heehee
Anyway, we adore you and appreciate you! xoxo